So today is one year for my boyfriend and I and it's about time. I mean all together we have been going at this for 2 years but today is a year straight with no breaks or break ups. In the past I think our longest relationship was  5 months and because of that I was rather hesitant about giving him another chance but now I'm so glad I did. I look around and I honestly haven't found a couple who has the kind of relationship that we have. A relationship that is so open, honest, and loving. I mean how many people are out there who can feel as strongly as I do for someone I hardly ever see? I've come to realize that love isn't all about being with each other 24/7, it's about feelings that go way deeper than that. I know I'm only 17 but I already know that I won't find another person out there who will be able to replace him. He's my other half, it's like he makes me a whole and I don't mean that in a clingy way. I just mean that he's everything that I'm not and I'm everything he's not. He brings out the best in me and I'd like to believe that I bring out the best in him too. I love him so much and I'm just so happy that I've found someone like him. I mean how many guys are out there that will drop everything just to make your crappy day better, or will make a fool of himself just to get you to smile, or write you love letters in attempt to tell you exactly how he feels about you, or tells you that you're beautiful no matter what anyone else says? He's everything I have always wanted in a boyfriend plus so much more. Baby I love you so much and without you I wouldn't be the person that I am today, which is a hell of a lot better person than I used to be. Until you came along I didn't even know what it was like to have someone truly care about me. And I didn't have a reason to think about things before I did them. Now I realize that if I wouldn't have met you I would probably be a girl with a not so good reputation and I never wanted to be like that even if I was headed in that direction. So thank you for everything you have done for me I appreciate it more than you will ever know.

-notyouraveragegirl-

Submission and Covering go together

So many women do not see that the two go together.

Wearing the covering is Submission, and not to wear it, it is a dishonour to your head, your husband


I have been Covering for 19 years now.and I find it is a blessing.
There is a order, with out order, there is no happy marriage. Karen

If love never hurt ... It wouldn´t be love
And we never would grow
Toward the light from above
We never could know
How to dance in the rain
For with nothing at risk
There is nothing go gain
If love never hurt ... It wouldn´t be real
We wouldn´t be blessed
With a rudder and keel
We couldn´t caress
If we never could feel
We could never knowjoy
If we never could kneel
If love never hurt ... It wouldn´t be sweet
As devoid of the chaff
We could never grow wheat
And we never could laugh
Were it not for the heat
From the pain in our hearts
Where our love pressed a pleat
If love never hurt ... It would never grow strong
As the lessons of life
Praise the trials in a song
And the blessings of strife
Teach the right from the wrong
As the Yin follows Yang
Home to where they belong
If love never hurt ... Then we never could see
The dark from the light
Or the land from the sea
If we never knew pain
We could never be free
As the heart must know both
What´s in you and in me
If love never hurt ... It would never be true
To the heart of the one
And the seeds that it grew
And the loss of the heart
If we never were blue
Would never bear costs
And would never grow new
If love never hurt ... We could never know light
As it pierces the dark
From a long , lovely night
We could never know bliss
Were it not for the fright
That our love one´s sweet kiss
If forgotten takes flight
So give me the joy and i´ll suffer the pain
For each part my life
Needs the sun and the rain
So give me the highs
And i´ll weather the lows
As the thorn and the petal
Adoring the rose
And shelter me not
from the sorrows of love
That my heart N´er regret
The twin songs of the dove

I know that this movie has been talked about a bunch on blogs and websites all over the world so I won't repeat how amazing all the actors were (Ledger was superb, but so was everyone else), or how great the second of the batman movies was.  I will just say that for the first time in a long time I saw an action movie with substance and real power.  I saw it three days ago and I am still in awe.  To everyone that worked on that project, my hat is off to you.  Thank you and I hope that you do not slow your yourselfs, because we want more.

I'm currently watching The Talented Mister Ripley and eating an apple (Matt Damon is a good actor, I don't care what anyone says. He is so convincingly creepy in this film)(also I am FUCKING SICK of apples but I need to get rid of them) and a scene just happened where Tom Ripley bashes the head of Fatty McPale-ass in with a bust.And all I can think is 'he's never gonna get the blood out of every crevice of the hair on that thing. IT'S GOING TO STAIN!'

Well, I haven't been on thoughts in quite some time now.  I am pleased by the new layout they have for it.  Defenitly easier to use and a lot better to look at. 

Im hoping this time I can actually continue my blogs on a regular unlike the two times before when I had started and failed to finish.  Sometimes I wouldn't have much to say and sometimes I just didn't feel like getting into all the crap that was on my mind.  I'm sure this time wont be a problem though.  I just started a new job at Macy's in addition to my full time job and my side bookkeeping job.  Although I might not have much time to get on here, I sure will have a lot to say when I do.

Life is changing so drastically (sp) these days.  Two of my closest friends just had beautiful baby boys and two more of my close friends are expecting, one in September and one in October.  Both of them are having baby girls.  Our group of friends is very close.  We haven't been seperated or broken up (except the petty fights in high school here and there) since seventh grade.  We are now 25-27 years old and still as close as we have ever been.  So these bundles of joy are like family to each and every one of us.  Its so exciting.  I cant believe since the last time Ive been on here, this has all happend.  Its crazy and defenitly life changing.  We are all growing up so fast, kinda scary in a way.  Everyones going their own way, starting their families, and following careers that sometimes lead them to different states.  But Im happy to say, nothing will ever tear us apart.  Its great to have that bond with certain people.  These girls are like sisters to me, and Im also happy to say Ive added on a few more along the way.

While these lovely ladies are starting families and raising children, Im actually trying to figure out what Im going to do with my life.  Ive always had the dream of having children and being married in a little cottage in the country somewhere, but its funny how Im nowhere near that right now.  I am engaged and have been for 2 years in December.  We dont have enough money to get married and neither do my parents.  So for now, we will just have to wait.  But the age of 30 is knocking at my door and Im getting a little antsy.  Ready to have children?, not really.  I could defenitly raise one, but Im just not in "the place" right now for me to be satisfied of actually planning on having a child.  Im not stable with my finances and I do believe im quite selfish at times with wanting things my way.  I know I wouldnt be that way if I was expecting but I dont want to start off that way.

So I have decided to start a new career.  People may think its a silly thing to do, thats fine, but im trying to figure out what makes me happy in life and why not?  I have the free time and the enthusiasm to do so.  I recently applied for a job at Macy's because I really love fashion and Macy's is my favorite store.  I figured, I love shopping, I love shoes, clothes, handbags, etc..  So why not try a career in that field.  Im very excited.  I start Monday and I hope all goes well.  It looks like a very fun and exciting place to work and I am just hoping I can make the money I make at my full time job, which is not going to be hard to compete with.

I might have more to say today but for now, Im signing off.  Happy Friday!

  Nature and Animals Can Bring Us Rest, Clarity, and Peace of Mind

Slash through
Air
And cut through
Bone
As soft flesh
And rose liquid
Seperate
Around the steel wedge.
Crying and screeching;
Echoes that shake the night
And make leaves whiten
And crinkle
Like an old widow's skin.
Eyes, the size of
Silver coins,
Burst open
And spill fluid
Out of young lettuce leaves.
Violins rot,
The wood decomposing
Along with its music,
The bow sliding ever so softly against
Rusty strings, sending
Salty red-orange particles to fly,
Only to be carried by fleas
That hide under the tail of a dead cow.
Rose liquid sinks deep
Into linen
That flaps from the stormy wind
That screams out your name.
Hollow faces dance in the leaves
That fall like white snow
Into a black swamp
That swallows light
Into its depths.
The leaves sink into
The dark surface
Like human teeth
Slipping back into their gums.
The long steel wedge strikes
Against the stone ground,
Rising back up into
Crunchy dead
Mush.
Dear Rose-red liquid,
Stick to that wedge.

Roses hook with their thorns
And never let go.

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I took a mini break from my normal daily life.  But now I'm back.  On my drive home today I was listening to this radio show talking about terrorism, other cultures and the possibility of nuclear attack.  Then they started talking about what would happen if the "enemy" were to do an EMP (electro-magnetic pulse) attack on the US.  The results, they said, would be anything to do with power/electricity/technology shutting down completely.

Now I am no rocket scientist, nor do I have any desire to be one, but this got me thinking.  So basically, the above would result would be the entire North American continent being reverted to the 19th century lifestyle for months, maybe years.  No heat, no cars, no food as we know it now, no electricity, no phones, no mass transit, no thoughts.com, nothing.  What would you do in a situation like that?

It is absolutely mind boggling to think of what we would have to do.  Think about the simplest things...how many houses in the north have fireplaces/wood stoves anymore?  Not many.  If you have a woodstove up here it is generally in the basement and needs a fan (run on electricity) to force the heat through the house.  As for fireplaces-they are decorative and not practical.  One fireplace heating a 6+ room home in -20 degree weather?  I don't think so.  What about food?  No transportation means no incoming supply, the cans in your pantry would last only so long. 

I have no idea where I expected to go with this, it was just something that really got me thinking and I wanted to throw the questions at you: what would you do?  How would you survive?